There are times when we regret some act of ours. Its my time to regret an act of mine. Something that I did in a fit of emotion. Something which has hurt a friend deeply and her pain has hurt me deeply.
Wish life had a 'restore' option and we could get back to a time in past and start afresh.
I know I can never say you this dear friend but I need to apologize, I am sorry that I have hurt you though I had no such intentions. Sometimes things just happen and you dont have a control over it...that night I lost my the control over my mind and broke the promise made to you.
I know I have lost you...you have all the reasons to hate me....you will never ever trust me or speak to me. Punish me in every possible way that you can but dont suspect my intentions to befriend you. You will always be special to me and I just want to see you happy. Keep smiling!!!
I will miss you.
Tuesday, October 14, 2008
Sunday, October 12, 2008
Saturday, October 11, 2008
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My new office is cool. The people, colleagues, bosses are co-operative, cordial and warm. The company is a reputed one. The salary is way better than before. The pantry has a better vending machine that can make tea and coffee of 5 different flavours.The washroom is cleaned 3 times a day.The staffs are offered cold drinks and snacks on a few days of the week.
The ACs work all the time even at power-cuts unlike my previous office. The system is fast and my desk is at a corner which gives me th required privacy. The work pressure is considerably less and I even get back home earlier than what I used to in my last company.
Everything seems to be getting right.I should have been more than happy to get this job at my hometown. Mom serves tea in the morning, packs lunch. What more can one ask from life? Such a hassle free life isn't it?
Then why am I not happy. What's stopping me to savour the fruits of all the hard work that I have put all these years? Why am I not satisfied? What am I searching for? Is this what I wanted? Is this the thing I will have to settle for? Why these question fill my mind all the time? where can I have an answer to these stupid, silly questions that clouds my mind and steal the equanimity. I am so tired, so damn tired. Is it so difficult to be happy???
The ACs work all the time even at power-cuts unlike my previous office. The system is fast and my desk is at a corner which gives me th required privacy. The work pressure is considerably less and I even get back home earlier than what I used to in my last company.
Everything seems to be getting right.I should have been more than happy to get this job at my hometown. Mom serves tea in the morning, packs lunch. What more can one ask from life? Such a hassle free life isn't it?
Then why am I not happy. What's stopping me to savour the fruits of all the hard work that I have put all these years? Why am I not satisfied? What am I searching for? Is this what I wanted? Is this the thing I will have to settle for? Why these question fill my mind all the time? where can I have an answer to these stupid, silly questions that clouds my mind and steal the equanimity. I am so tired, so damn tired. Is it so difficult to be happy???
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