For the one who knows its for her !!!

Wo insaan hi kya jo galti na kare... Yes, I too am not an error free person, maine bhi galtiyan ki hain but then I have always mustered enough courage to apologize and say sorry.

Someone said it very right "One of the most difficult things to say is 'I am sorry'"
Angrez bhale hi sorry chhor gaye ho par sorry kehne ka jigar nahi chhor gaye!!!!

Kisine yeh bhi sach kaha hai ki maafi maangne wale se badha hota hai maaf karne wala.
Mera dil badha tha ki maine apni galti ki maafi mangi par jis tarah bhagwan sabko height nahi deta, maaf karne k liye badha dil bhi nahi deta.

Sorry might not change anything for few people but for some sorry changes a lot of things if it is properly said. I cannot hold grudges against a person for long, but some people love to do it. They will keep all the animosity inside their heart and will hurt themselves by remembering it time and again. I wonder ki unke paas aur koi kaam nahi hota kya? Agar maaf kar k bhula diya hota to khud bhi khush hote aur dusron ko bhi khush rehne dete. Well its their choice.

I love to smile and love it when people smile back at me...but some people...Gosh. Lagta hai unhe hasne par bhi tax lagta hai. 'Keep smiling' jaisa beautiful phrase bhi unhe misleading lagta hai.Bhagwaan aise logon ko dil khol kar hasne ki takat de.

Maine kisiko apna friend samjha so I apologized to her for my act but if the concerned person doesnt even try to understand a word instead thinks that everything is cooked up then fuck off,I wont give it a damn. You didnot even deserve my friendship, forget apology.I take back my apology and I confess that if I missed you then I missed the wrong person.

I pray to God that He puts you into a similar situation honey...where you try to apologize for a misunderstanding cropped up due to some act of yours and your apology is mocked at and is unheard just as the way was mine. Tell me then how it feels.

Apology!!!

There are times when we regret some act of ours. Its my time to regret an act of mine. Something that I did in a fit of emotion. Something which has hurt a friend deeply and her pain has hurt me deeply.
Wish life had a 'restore' option and we could get back to a time in past and start afresh.
I know I can never say you this dear friend but I need to apologize, I am sorry that I have hurt you though I had no such intentions. Sometimes things just happen and you dont have a control over it...that night I lost my the control over my mind and broke the promise made to you.
I know I have lost you...you have all the reasons to hate me....you will never ever trust me or speak to me. Punish me in every possible way that you can but dont suspect my intentions to befriend you. You will always be special to me and I just want to see you happy. Keep smiling!!!
I will miss you.

:-(

Tum hamare nahi to kya gum hai??
Hum tumhare to hain, yeh kya kam hai...

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My new office is cool. The people, colleagues, bosses are co-operative, cordial and warm. The company is a reputed one. The salary is way better than before. The pantry has a better vending machine that can make tea and coffee of 5 different flavours.The washroom is cleaned 3 times a day.The staffs are offered cold drinks and snacks on a few days of the week.
The ACs work all the time even at power-cuts unlike my previous office. The system is fast and my desk is at a corner which gives me th required privacy. The work pressure is considerably less and I even get back home earlier than what I used to in my last company.
Everything seems to be getting right.I should have been more than happy to get this job at my hometown. Mom serves tea in the morning, packs lunch. What more can one ask from life? Such a hassle free life isn't it?
Then why am I not happy. What's stopping me to savour the fruits of all the hard work that I have put all these years? Why am I not satisfied? What am I searching for? Is this what I wanted? Is this the thing I will have to settle for? Why these question fill my mind all the time? where can I have an answer to these stupid, silly questions that clouds my mind and steal the equanimity. I am so tired, so damn tired. Is it so difficult to be happy???

Ever wondered????

Ever wondered how it feels if your position in a person's life changes overnight??
Someone who till yesterday was so close to you, who made you feel that without you his/her life was incomplete. Someone who loved you till yesterday so dearly that you felt on the top of the world. Someone whom you learned to love after witnessing his/her love. Someone who made you feel special, who made you feel that you too are desirable.

What happens when the person and all the feelings changes overnight???
Does life come to a standstill? Does that stop you from loving him/her??
Does it make you feel unimportant and insignificant???

Ever wondered how it would have felt????

Confession

I hate changing myself for someone. I am what I am and will continue to be so. If somebody wants to love me he/she has to accept me the way I am.
I am like grains of sand....the more you want to hold me inside your hand..the faster I will slip out from the gaps between your fingers.
I don't give a shit to what people think about me...you might think I have an attitude problem or I am a snob..I don't mind..This is the way I am and this is my world, my space.

Fuck Off....if you want to change me!!!!

NIGHT SKY

The night sky is so beautiful...................
I had almost forgot how the sky looks like at night.Though an insomniac I remain awake till late hours but I have never bothered to have a glimpse of the sky at night.My late night activities mainly are surfing the net for some bizzare things or pressing the remote of the TV till my thumb starts hurting or just lying down on the couch with my ipod and a book as my only companions.These gadgets and gizmos has taken me far away from nature and its enigmatic beauties.
Last night when I got pissed off with the same old movies and shows on the television and my ipod and computer too failed to lure me I decided to go to the terrace and breathe in some fresh air.This was something I was going to do after ages.sounds funny na???I know it is but this is how my life has become off late.

Well,the first thing I felt when I climbed the last step to my terrace was peace.It was dark,quiet and soo soothing out there that I forgot all my woes and worries within seconds.I paced all over the terrace over and over again and was enthralled by something......I dont know what.I was all alone there and the estranged feeling gave me much comfort.In many years for the first time I felt that I was being myself.........out of the cobwebs of relationships, attachments, expectations, social responsibilities..............blah blah.............phew.
I realised that its important to have time for the ownself.Some little space to breathe,to relax.to chill,time to empty the brain from all thoughts,time to just lie down and stare the night sky.
Everything so beautiful,so mystical..........the clouds,the moon,the stars,the constellations,everything around.
Peace.......eternal peace........few hours there alone and it feels like eternity.
The night sky is so beautiful........